Happy Father's Day

I feel SO blessed to be able to share my life with these wonderful men I get to honor today. I seriously couldn't imagine life without them in it. They have all brought so many different things to my life. I honor and respect these men for everything they are. In life, and in the world. I would love to be able to eloquently speak about them in a manner that would justify their placement, but no words could compare the passion my heart has for them. So, In my own words I will dedicate myself, my life, and my post to them.

I have been blessed without end because of this man's presence in my life. My heart is forever tied to him. He has comforted me in life endlessly. He's been there every step of the way. Down every road I've chosen he's walked with me. Never a step behind. He's loved me from the depths of my heart to the bottom of my soul. He's loved me when I was hard to love. As much as I've pushed him away, he's remained a constant in my life. Never wavering on this path. He's been there from day one of my life. He's kissed away all my boo boos. Always helped me up when I fell. He was there with me when I rode my bike for the first time. He held me tight, but eventually let go. He gave me the freedom to try it on my own. He comforts me when I'm scared. He's been to every softball game I had. Right there in the bleachers cheering me on. In my darkest valley's, through trials and tribulations, he's reminded me of his love. He's reminded me of his commitment to never leave me. I wouldn't be half the person I am today if it wasn't for him, and for that I owe him everything. I am who I am, because of him.

Lord, I love you with everything I am!! I truly am who I am because of you. I thank you SO much for believing in me. I thank you SO much for thinking enough about me that you would send your son to die for our sins that we may be free. No matter how much I've strayed, or pushed you away, you've always welcomed me back with open arms. I'm SO happy to have you in my life. You've filled it with so much peace and joy. I've never been so comfortable with myself or my life til I opened my heart to you. I know there's nothing too big or too small I can't get through without you beside me. I will forever praise your name.

I wish I could have written that above post about my dad. *sigh* I'm sure some of you thought it was directed towards him, but truth being I could only dream. See, my dad is a distant in my life. Though I always dreamed of those things with him, it never was a reality. I missed my father being there for me. Softball when everyone Else's dad was there, mine was missing from the bleachers. When we went to state, he wasn't there to cheer me on. My graduation's, dance recitals. Cheer leading and Gymnastics went on without his presence. My mom raised my brother and I on her own. She in essence was my mother and father. I always dreamed of being a daddy's girl. After all, I am his only daughter. Four kids, only one girl. A lot of time's I've blamed myself for not being good enough for him. He was always there for birthday's and Christmas. He gave of his wallet candidly. What I'd have given to have him give of himself that way. I guess in many ways, I learned a lot from him. I closed myself off from people. Sheltered my heart in preparation of getting hurt. Maybe even anticipation. Maybe I never will know why he is the way he is, but this I do know. My heart is full of love for him. (OK, so this post might not mimic it) I love him with every ounce of who I am. When I look in the mirror, I see him. I am a spitting image of him. I pray for him constantly. See, he was an abusive man. My mom divorced him when I was one, because he wanted my mom to abort. She instead chose life. She became a woman of faith, thanks to my aunt, and well he belittled her for that. But, after all is said and done, he is my father. He is a part of me. For that, I am grateful.

To my wonderful husband. I love you!! I can't say enough about you on this day, or any day for that matter. Thank you will NEVER come close to the gratefulness I have in my heart for you. Thank you so much for accepting me as I was, bruised and broken. Young with a lot to learn. No matter how much I pushed you away, you never gave up on me. You drew me nearer. You brought back so much in my life I'd been missing. You love me unconditionally even when I'm not the easiest to love. We've been through a lot in our 6 years. With every step you've stood faithful beside me. You've helped me grow. You've given me strength at my weakest times, just because I knew you were there. I love you with everything I am, and thank you SO much for our beautiful and wonderful kids. After all, that's why I'm honoring you this day. Though I wish everyday was Father's day to honor you, because you deserve it. You have shown so much patience with them, as you have with me. Your full of love, and have poured your heart out to them. You give them guidance, and a foundation. You've given of yourself unselfishly. You've gone without to give to them. You've worked endless days, countless hours without recognition to give to them. You protect them with a hand that's so gentle. Your strong and uplifting. I couldn't have asked for more then when the Lord blessed me with you to be their father, my husband, and my best friend.

Regardless of when this day is over, these men will remain. They will be there. I will be here. I promise to forever honor them. After all, I am blessed. I have two father's!! How can I not commit myself entirely to them?